What does it feel like

What is it like

To try to do things

To make it your life

But it don’t go

Where you want it to go

So you just let go

Just let it flow

Now there was a time

Before all of this

There was a time

When life was pure bliss

But now you’re at home

Your time ill spent

Cause you never did give

One hundred percent

I sit and watch with no resistance

I’ll never lose if I don’t try

Is it just fear that I’m running from or should I even care

That I’ve lost my life

you could have done more

you could have gone on tour

but drugs filled the music

burned out to the core

of existence

resistance

excited measures no longer

come with this

now your half ass troubles

fill half ass mind

you sit in the corner

wishin to rewind

your life and time

askin everybody why

askin god for help

yet receiving no reply

Maybe it’s time I pay attention

I never laughed until I cried

When did I forget where I’m coming from – when did I get scared?

When did I die?

waitin on the corner

for the midnight train

mind in the gutter

drugs on the brain

waiting so patiently

to just end the pain

every single memory

always feels the same

lost your sense of time

watching through the frame

friends don’t call

girlfriend doesn’t feign

love anymore

lifes such a bore

cant do nothing right

just hold yourself tight

Is it too late to change direction?

I used to have so much inside

Is there a chance I’ll get it back again or am I too fucking old?

Is there still time?

I don’t remember where the two different chord progressions came from, but I think this was one that Ben started the ball rolling. He would do this thing where he had an idea in his head, and he would describe and sing the guitar part and play the drums he had in mind and we’d figure it out. I think that’s where the first part came from, and the second part I remember having the discussion about how to descend from A to E and I think it was Pat that came up with the f# on the way instead of going for the obvious f. Whoever it was it was perfect for writing a chorus over. 

Jake was gonna write the verses and I was gonna write a hook, and he emailed me a word document with three verses about the guy with potential that just fades away. They were clearly chronological and the logical thing to me then was to progress chronologically as well, thus it became one of those songs that doesn’t repeat any lyrics, the “hook” is different all three times like the verses are, and it’s essentially call and response. I totally remember mixing this down at Gremlen and I think it was Ben who had this brilliant idea to slam the first bass note of the second half of each chorus and wow was he right. Listen for that. And singing this one for me always hit me pretty damn close to home.