Maybe it’s because you’re always there

Makin’ me feel like I don’t have to care

I know you can’t leave

And I know I ain’t gonna change

Is it the little things I do

Got you actin’ strange?

All I see are storm clouds in your eyes

Tell me is it me or do I feel your temper rise?

Are you tryin’ to tell me somethin’ I don’t want to know

Suddenly it occurs to me I got no place to go

I’m gonna cry like a child

If you ever let me down

I don’t know why it’s so hard

To turn this thing around

I’m gonna cry like a child

If you ever let me down

I don’t know why but somehow I thought

You would always keep me around

And I’m dreaming again

What did I miss I’m finding wicked ways to pinch myself awake

I see you screaming again

Cause I forgot to read your lips

I wasn’t listening again

Don’t hold it against me

Maybe I’m scared – I know I ain’t prepared

I cannot face the consequence – knowin’ I could have spared the future

I can’t believe you never really needed me

I live and die inside your wounds

A danger to both me and you

You’ll go on even when I’m gone

You’ll be fine and I can’t make it alone

I should have seen it comin’ I should have changed my evil ways

I never thought I would see the day, it just might be too late

I’m gonna cry like a child

If you ever let me down

I don’t know why it’s so hard

To turn this thing around

I’m gonna cry like a child

If you ever let me down

I don’t know why but somehow I thought

You would always keep me around

Sometime around early ’07 I was working on a new song that started off as something like electronic music. I had started with the drum programming, and I worked the chord progression out while playing the wurlitzer through a wah-wah pedal, and I had something different than most of my other stuff. It never takes long though before I feel like I gotta put a guitar in there and inevitable it turns into some variation of rock. I had recently bought a small fender amp specifically for recording guitar with better tone than I could get out of my old Digitech RP-12, and it was sounding good on this track which at the time was called “Hmmm”.

Being the left wing pinko that I am I stumbled across a contest for best save the planet type Earth day video, and I thought, okay let’s write a song about how we’re destroying our planet and make a video. I think I had three or four weeks before Earth day to get this thing done. I already had a mixdown called “Hmm Instrumental”, so it was just a matter of writing and recording the words. And of course making a video. At the time I didn’t have or know of a good way so suck video off the internet, so I actually spent hours googling for videos on pollution and environment, etc., and video taped my computer monitor playing the videos, and then arranging the video over the song. I did not win the contest. I’ve always been pretty happy with the video, but as is often the case, I’ve never been happy with the vocals.

In preparing this song for An Anthology of Sorts I once again had just a complete instrumental mixdown to work with and record new vocals over. I really always wanted a female with a kick-ass R&B voice to sing this song, but I haven’t been able to get anyone interested yet. Hit me up if you are that female and like the song ;^)}. I’m satisfied with what I got done here for now. As I was listening to mixdowns with the new vocals I realized the last chorus sounded kind of thin and empty even though the drums are going crazy and there’s two guitar solos on top of everything else. I realized that somehow in the original mix I had no rhythm guitar for that last chorus, it drops out right after the second to last chorus. I thought well this is one of those songs I recorded on my old software so I can’t open the original project, but I should have that guitar part sitting in a folder somewhere. I scoured my back-up of the old pc, and found everything but what I needed. The drums, bass, wurlitzer, leads, old vocals, no rhythm guitar. I though I could try to recreate that same sound that I got in ’07, but instead I tried something else. I took just the instrumental bit from an earlier chorus that has the rhythm guitar in there, and layered with this last chorus with the volume pretty low, and it works for me. Below is the let’s stop f%^&ing up the planet video.